私の生きた証拠

There’s some Chinese proverb about how a child can never repay his mother for all that he has received, just as young grasses cannot repay the winds (is it? Or is it spring? I am not sure) for making it possible for it to grow in the first place.

There’s just something magical about writing or music composition. Whatever the author/composer’s intentions, there is likely to be someone, somewhere who gets deeply affected by the work.

Given that 「primary」’s not written for a particular anime/show/whatever, it must have been a product largely of Ayako-sama’s own independent motivations and abilities. (Iwasaki Taku 岩崎琢　probably did a lot to polish up the pieces, but they’re still mostly her own work.) That’s pretty important, since if a person composes pretty much without any boundaries he or she tends to choose something closer to heart, right? Seeing that three pieces in 「primary」 relate strongly to the sky (「patch of blue sky」「空ノナマエ」「missing blue」), it would make sense to conclude that she thinks about the sky a lot. Maybe this doesn’t mean anything to most people, but it does, at least to me.

Thinking about the sky’s a very poignant (not sure if I used the right word) sort of thing, since it’s so closely associated with longing and aspiration, while conveying a sense of repression and unhappiness. Sometimes I look up at the sky on the way to school (while listening to 「patch of blue sky」) and wonder if she has found what she had been seeking. I have also come to associate the piece with the sky so much that it is likely that the piece will come to mind many years in the future, whenever I feel sufficiently emotional to look up at the sky, which hopefully still resembles what it’s like today.

Well, I’d like to thank someone here, the person who introduced me to the wonder that is 「primary」 - JCX. If not for the fact that he allowed me to listen to the tracks in the first place, life might very well been worse for I might never come to know about it. After all, it was listening to 「patch of blue sky」 and 「sakura」 that led me to, once again, almost four years after I have come to know about her existence, to fall in love once again with someone’s who is possibly the greatest seiyuu of her generation (if not all time).

She’s distant, and she will most likely never come to know or care about my existence.

But not the other way round. And 「patch of blue sky」 will never be forgotten. At least, not by me.

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