Semirandom update on events
It’s been a while since I’ve written. And by heavens the recent days and weeks have been eventful. Just this week I managed to wear a yukata to school (and attend classes in it all day, as well as eating and braving the heat), sign up for two international exams (the HSK and EJU), received results for an exam (EJU, for which I did miserably for math, marginally acceptably for Japanese Language and sort of well for Japan and the World), do a lot of digital housekeeping, attend my first session at the biology olympiad training program (and bearing in mind that I don’t take biology in school), spoke to some important people about my ’secret’ conspiracies, and held a really lengthy discussion about Japanese politics and Japanese university admission with my mentor’s husband completely in Japanese (albeit with my dictionary as a translation aid). Not to mention that I actually returned my overdue library items, and bought a philosophy book written in Japanese (on top of the regulation seiyuu mags and School Rumble vol. 17). On a side note, I somehow managed to make the ‘Dean’s List’ (some listing of high/top scorers in the various subjects) for General Paper and Japanese language. I also did a lot of silly things that I might mention someday.
But I wonder if I’m burning out. (By the way the coffee I spilled into my keyboard has started hosting mould - I wonder if I should just dump this thing and buy a new one.) I’ve felt it coming for a long time - and a telling sign is my reluctance to blog. I intended this blog to be a sort of record of my existence (hence the title), and not updating seems to be denying my own existence, which amounts to quite a contradiction. And really, staring at the whitish stuff between and under the keys makes me want to do something… But never mind. I’m too broke to buy a keyboard anyway. After all, I just paid good old Sec-chan/Jon 150 bucks for 3 CDs and a Haruhi figurine (yes the Max Factory one) that he brought in for me (saving me A LOT of trouble, bless him). Oh and did I mention that I decided on a signature? I gotta admit it’s a beauty, paying both ample respect (and genuine homage) to the name my parents have given me, while not neglecting the Japanese ‘roots’ which I have adopted for myself. I’m still practising to get it right, but generally I can achieve 80% or so commonality. Anyway that’s not really the point.
I had begun writing a post on my midlife crisis some time ago, but i doubt I’m going to finish it. But to summarize it it’s really about my growing disinterest in sciences in general (plunging to almost complete apathy for chemistry, and weakening for physics, though not biology as yet), and growing interest (perhaps even fire) for the social sciences. I realize that Miss Niu was right from the start (call it maybe two years ago) when she said that it would be ‘a waste if [I] didn’t study arts’.
By the way I’m filled with a sense of purpose I seldom feel at the moment. (And no it’s not about picking up the Kobe babes.) But that’s a sort of secret. 