Death and Rebirth

No, I am not referring to Evangelion.

I am a changed person. The events of days not long past have left their indelible mark upon me.

I will go on living, but no longer can I stay as myself. It’s a whole new search for my own identity and my place on Terra.

I have learnt two very important lessons.

1. Only your family will think twice, thrice, a million times before hurting you, and not even think before coming to your aid.

2. Life must be enjoyed, alone, or otherwise.

The first is a relatively easy lesson to absorb. The second’s harder. But now that it seems that for the forseeable future I am destined to be alone, I haven’t really got a choice.

As I close a chapter on my somewhat exciting life, I now head into the future, with the burden of past memories largely put behind me. I’ll probably be a little empty for a while. Whether the space left vacant by my forced removal of once treasured feelings and memories will be filled remains to be seen.

- J’ai mes joies, mes peines - elle font ma vie. Mais je dois y aller. Au revoir, ma vieux vie!

I don’t care if the above is grammatically wrong. It probably is, anyway.

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