Tilting the Balance
I have come to the conclusion that the notion of ‘the well-balanced individual’ is a myth perpetuated to make losers (like me) feel good about enjoying themselves (either through watching TV, playing computer or whatever).
Just as a wheel rotates when there’s net torque (basically meaning it’s imbal unbal) a real balanced life isn’t going anywhere unless you’re one of a few people (Pangwei-wannabes, anyone?). Hence it is with no small degree of sorrow that I shall avoid thinking about the release of Command and Conquer 3: Tiberium Wars.
The issue of CCA leadership’s also getting to me, and I’m having trouble sorting out what is truly my calling, and what are but distractions. As all my life I have been a more noncommittal type of person it’s proving to be a real challenge. I’m absolutely convinced that unlike luminaries like Juanhe I probably can’t have my cake and eat it too, so I would have to prioritize. Unfortunately, sleep comes first on the priority list… (ok maybe joint first with family)
I suspect that I might be suffering from oxygen deprivation during sleep. I get the feeling that the air conditioner isn’t working properly (e.g. it doesn’t feel like 27C when it’s supposed to be, and there’s a musty smell of what may be decayed seaweed in the room). I’ll try sleeping with the windows fully open and see how it goes. I’m not losing any more brain cells than necessary if I can help it.
In any case, one thing does disturb me. WHY THE HELL IS EVERYONE (even the leetest of all people) BEING SO EMO?????? IS LIQIAN THE ONLY SANE MAN LEFT IN EXISTENCE? I’m just asking the questions for the sake of asking. I don’t want an answer - I fear the answer.
I need more sleep. Oh well.