I would just like to clarify something.
I consider myself to be a pretty open minded person. At least, I’ve always tried to be, though I may not be terribly successful. But there is a certain limit to which I can go.
At the cost of sounding like someone I absolutely do not want to sound like, I would like to remind some people that this is my blog, and hence by the extension of that, my territory. I am not being racist or doing something terribly disruptive to society right here, and as far as that holds, I am fully entitled to my own opinion and voicing it.
I am not blind to the fact that my opinions are hardly held in high regard by many, and a violent cause of controversy for a few. I understand to some extent the emotions of those who have responded in what I perceive to be an indignant manner to some claims I have put forth. I did not censor your comments - because I believe to do that would be rather against my principle of openness. However, I feel that I must respond accordingly.
I do not know why is it that people disagree with me over certain matters, and in retrospect, sometimes I don’t really care. I respect certain people for what they do, but more importantly, for what they go through and experience. As many of those who know me, I have little respect for the common man, except for an innate obligation to serve their interests somehow. I do not literally care in the least what emotional struggles they go through as they lead their lives - and I dare you to fault me for this. I cannot possibly respect anyone and everyone - and as far as I am concerned I have a damned good reason for respecting the people I choose to respect. Everyone probably goes through some sort of suffering in their lives - but there are ways to judge whose life has been of more value than another. It is probably unfair, and none more so than to the common man many seek to defend, at what I believe to be a gross insult to many who are much more worthy of understanding, defence and true respect.
I am not going to change my stand on the matter. I value the friendship of those who have offered their opinions, but every action has some sort of consequence, minor or otherwise. In reaction to some of those comments offered, I have changed my opinions of those who offered them. I will honestly state that they are changes for the worse, and if they should not care what I think about them, so be it. Sometimes, like right now, I am way past caring - for my patience in times of reflection and change is simply nothing like it usually is.
Please do not attempt to test my patience. If you want to seek an intellectual argument, wait till I am ready for it. And at this moment, I am NOT ready and NOT willing to tolerate ANY challenge to my beliefs grounded on ideas I despise. I will just encapsulate this sentiment in one statement:
“I do not give a damn if the whole world suffers - as long as I am suffering first and foremost.”
I dare your noblenesses to challenge that.
And you’re sorely mistaken if I am going to go the extra mile to be polite or fair to those who I perceive with good reason to be fucking retards and hypocrites.