私の生きた証拠

Hmm, I just turned 16 a few minutes ago. Happy birthday myself. Lol.

Well, it’s not terribly Japanese to celebrate one’s birthday (as of the time of Sakura Taisen), but I guess now it doesn’t really matter.

Things are changing so fast. Every year of age I gain I feel older, wiser, and generally sadder.

Maybe it’s time to reverse the trend.

Humans need a purpose they believe in, meaningful or otherwise, real or otherwise, to live with vigour and spirit. I suppose I have found mine, which I hope will sustain me for at least a while.

I realized that up till now, I haven’t really been living life the way I want to. Perhaps its time to. Rather than let circumstances shape my path, I’d prefer to do it myself.

Perhaps the only way to be happy is to be happy with what you have and not to seek happiness. To be able to feel the throbbing pain of longing and unfulfilment is far superior than the pain of an existential crisis, is it not? People might ultimately be hopelessly solitary and alone, but there are times when such a pain is eased, or forgotten, by the presence of others. I take delight in the simple pleasures of life, seeking only the sound of Horie Yui’s or others’ voices, a well-made video, a well-drawn picture, a good meal, or even a decent conversation. I can’t really honestly say life is bad at all without being an outright liar.

 Well that’s all for now. Good morning, people.

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